I have (had?) a copywriting business that I have just lost my passion for. I have a single client that I edit for, and I’m not too jazzed about that either.
I started an etsy shop for my crochet items. But I’m afraid to promote it because I don’t feel like I have enough items in it yet.
Now, I am contemplating (have already started?) a Tarot-reading business.
I decided to do a business reading for myself because I’m feeling a little lost, and I don’t want to be stuck in limbo anymore. I feel like there is something that I’m supposed to be doing, something that is trying to make itself manifest through me, but I just can’t figure out what it is.
Time to consult the cards.
Question: What is blocking me, in terms of my business goals. (Do I even have a business?)
I used Kelly-Ann’s general reading spread in lieu of the celtic cross. (If you don’t know who she is, you should definitely check her out! She’s the inspiration for me starting this blog!)
The Five of Wands came out again. It fell out as I was shuffling. It’s noted, and I shuffled it back into the deck.
Core Card: Knight of Cups
Obstacle: The Moon
Recent Past: Seven of Pentacles
Immediate Future: Seven of Wands
Hopes: The High Priestess
Fears: The Fool
Strengths: Ten of Wands
Weakness: The Hermit
Three Action/Advice Cards: The Wheel of Fortune, Four of Cups, and Nine of Wands
The Unconscious: Ace of Pentacles
When I look at this spread, I feel like I am the knight of cups. However, the knight of cups represents not just myself, but also the energies of the situation.
There is some kind of creative endeavour that is trying to manifest itself but I know I tend to get very caught up in the idea of things, and I have a hard time with following through and seeing things to the end.
The Moon appears as my obstacle card. This represents my fears and anxieties. Because it appears as my obstacle, I think it means that instead of just listening to my intuition, I should actually hear what it is telling me, and act accordingly.
When I start a new project, I go all in, no matter what. I obsess over it, spend hours on the computer researching, (did I mention I am the poster child for ADHD?) to the exclusion of my family and obligations.
The Seven of Pentacles is the recent past, and to me, it depicts pining over money. Things are pretty tight financially, and the normal reading for this card just doesn’t feel right. My husband and I are rich in love, and that’s about it. This card feels like pining for money and/or success.
The immediate future card is the Seven of Wands, which makes me feel like I’m going to have to fight for every scrap I want. There’s still real work to be done if I want to get anywhere with my business.
I think it’s great that The High Priestess showed up as my Hopes card. I do have hopes to tap into my intuition, to walk a more spiritual path. She’s there waiting for me, waiting to guide me along my path. I want to do more with my life, I want to help people in a non-traditional way. I know Tarot can facilitate that.
Note: The High Priestess and The Moon are both psychic/intuition/subconscious cards.
My fears card is The Fool, which is fitting. I’m at the point where I’m terrified of starting something new again and then not following through with it. I’m afraid I have blinders on, and that I’m walking with my head in the clouds.
My strength card is the Ten of Wands. I can carry a heavy burden, and I have been for a long time. The strength in terms of my business goals probably refers to me working hard to manifest this business. I have it in me to put in the effort to make this work.
My weakness is The Hermit. I am terrible at being alone; I waste a lot of my time on the computer, which is definitely a huge weakness of mine. The Hermit also represents introspection, which makes me think that I need to stop thinking so much about business things, and actually do business things.
The quick-action advice cards include The Wheel of Fortune, The Four of Cups, and Nine of Wands.
The Wheel of Fortune indicates good luck! Things are turning in a positive direction, new opportunities are arriving. The Four of Cups indicates re-evaluating my situation, but along with the Wheel, I believe this means that the re-evaluation will be a very positive thing. Also, the Nine of Wands means I need to be persistent. These three cards indicate that things might feel stagnant now, but the times they are-a changin’ and as long as I persistently pursue my goals, and don’t let my fears get in the way, I will have great fortune.
The final card is the Unconscious, and I pulled the Ace of Pentacles.
This card represents money, manifestation, moving towards positive goals. This card says that it’s time to shake things up, and do something new. Aces are the seeds we plant, vibrant with new opportunity!
I have a really good feeling about this spread, and now I need to put some of what I’ve learned into action. Actual action, not just thinking about it in my head!
Overall, I need to get over my fears and start implementing things in my life that work towards building my business. It’s going to turn out well, so there’s no reason not to do it. I’m going to have a lot of internal struggling, but I need to remember that the Universe is working with me to achieve my dream.
I also noticed a distinct lack of swords in my spread, and I had 5 Major arcana. Swords represent the mental aspect; perhaps it means my lack of action so far?
Big things are coming my way for business, as long as I make the effort to manifest them.
Until next time, loves!